From This Moment On...

I know it's been a very long time since I wrote last. There has been a lot going on. For starters, I visited my love Steven for the Christmas/New Year's holidays. I had the most wonderful time there! I woke up in Vancouver and said in my heart "I'm home". I felt so at ease and peaceful there. It's so beautiful! And Steven is everything I expected and more. He kind, gentle, patient, affectionate, intelligent (I.Q. of 144!), artistic, deeply spiritual, and he was always telling me or showing me how special and beautiful I am. Everything my heart has been craving for so, so long. And he's so handsome! He's very tall (I come up to just below his shoulder) and he has nice big hands (I'll explain to you one day about my fascination with hands). I've never had such chemistry with anyone. He bought me a promise ring and now we are promised to each other. So it's not a matter of if we are going to get engaged and married, it's a matter of when.

I didn't want to leave him. Unfortunately, I had to come back. I'm almost done school and I have all my stuff to sort through. I have to save enough money to live off of until I get a job. I also have my cat here. I can't be without her and she can't be without me. It's very difficult being so far away from him, and because of his schooling we only talk about twice a week. I guess that is best though because talking to him too much makes me miss him. I try to remember how six months is not a long time when I think about how much I have to do before I move out there. Knowing I will be with him again soon and that I will never have to leave gives me strength to go on. It gives me a reason to endure everything I am going through right now.

I am very grateful to God for sending me Steven. I must ask His forgiveness for every time I got angry at Him when I couldn't have the other ones I wanted. I am so short-sighted. He truly does know what I need. My Heavenly Father looked deep into my heart and saw my Steven there. Steven is here and now my waiting is done. I love him very, very much.

Thank You, Lord, thank You.

Pax Christi,
KaraLynn