Emerging Into Me

the musings of KaraLynn Frayne, poet and children's author

Sunday, April 27, 2008

A Time to Sow...

Well, I'm not quite sure how to feel today. I attended my last Mass at my beloved home parish of St. Basil's. It is the parish where i wwas received into the Catholic Church. It has been my spiritual home for the last seven years.

You see, I'm moving to British Columbia this coming Thursday May 1st. I got the opportunity, so I took it. I'm going to be with my Steven. He is where my heart is. I want and need to be with him.

I don't know what the future has in store for me out there. Leaving my family, my friends (and my precious cat) and the comfort of familiarity saddens me. But I know God will take care of me. I remember how at peace and full of life I was when I was there at Christmas. I want that. I want that and never want to leave it again. I don't want to be away from Steven ever again.

So I have a bittersweet feeling inside. I am going to miss all of the people who have been so good to me over the years. But I also know that my life is going to be very full out in Vancouver. I will be working, building a life and planning a wedding. A year and five days from now, God willing, I will be a married woman.

All I've ever hoped for is coming true, but it isn't coming without cost. the sacrifice is the pain of leaving those I love behind.

It's a sacrifice I am more than willing to make.

Pax Christi,
KaraLynn