Another One Bites the Dust...

Well, he failed the test. It's done. I will not be revisting that relationship again. I cannot and will not compete with a mistress, especially one that comes in a bottle.

If all goes well, I'll be starting school next Wednesday. I originally wanted to take Developmental Service Worker but the school is not offering that any more. I had to settle for Social Service Worker instead.

Hopefully a year from now I'll graduate and find meaningful employment in a more humanitarian focussed position. I will then work to save up money to go to University and get my writing related degree.

I'm going to do it. I've made my mind up. Man or no man.

Pax Christi,
KaraLynn

Brokenbindings2 Interviews Me

Brokenbindings2 has interviewed me with the following questions, so here goes!

If you would like to be interviewed, just read the information that follows.

1. What saint do you find the most intriguing and why?

***I would have to say Mother Teresa. I know she is not "technically" a Saint yet, but she is singularly fascinating to me. I've been following her since I was a teenager in the Baptist faith. In fact I credit her intercession for my conversion into the Catholic Church.

Here was this little woman who had so much love inside her. She spent 50+ years caring for people most of us do not give a second thought to. She relied on God's Providence alone. It was recently revealed that she endured what is called "A Dark Night of the Soul" for MOST of her life! One would have NEVER suspected that.

2. If you could solve one of the world's problems, which would it be and how would you solve it?

***I would rid the world of the scourge of abortion. By helping people in every way I can that a baby is NOT the enemy. A baby is a wonderful gift to be cherished and loved.

3. Which age in life do you think is the most fulfilling?

***My 30th birthday was the best thus far. I had the most fun out of all my birthdays and I got this gut feeling that something spectacular is going to happen in my 30's.

4. Are there any individuals that you would like to apologize to or thank and what keeps you from doing it?

***My father, for telling him I hated him when I was 14. I can't tell him I'm sorry because he died shortly after that argument happened.

5. Which genre of literature would you defend upon pain of death and what is your justification for saving it?

***Poetry because it saved me from death many, many times. If I did not have that outlet when I was gong through what I did, I may not be alive today!

Now it's your turn to play if you wish!

Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me." I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions, and I will message or comment you with them and these directions. Just update your blog with the answers to the questions and include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Shakespeare was right...

I know I haven't written for quite some time now, it's been almost a month. I've been taking this career planning course in order to get my funding for school. The government wants me to be absolutely positive this is the path I want to take in life. People tell me that this is a good thing they are making me do. It turns out it is.

When I started the course I was really depressed. I had been battling this depression ever since I got fired. I don't think I would have been ready mentally to start school if I had not been forced out of my dungeon for this pre-schooling career planning seminar. So, in a way I am thankful for it.

Gerry and I decided to try and work things out. He has sworn off alcohol. He says it's because he wants me more. I'm going to test it out to see how long this new-found zeal for me lasts. He hasn't had a drop of alcohol for three weeks, but that could be just because he hasn't got any money. He's not working right now.

I had a strange, yet touching encounter the other day. An older man started talking to me in a cafe that my friend and former employer owns. He told me I was beautiful and that I should never let anyone make me feel bad because of what I look like. He said the most important thing is to love myself and to be happy.

He's right.

I've spent too much of my life letting people make me feel like I'm less of a person because I'm big. I've let them grind me down under their heels. For too long I've let them define me, not let myself define me. I'm 31. So much of my life has slipped by me.

I'm not going to let that happen any more.

I'm going to live my life on my own terms; which is, living according to my Catholic faith. I will no longer ask others for permission to live, to be me. I'm just going to be...

And if people don't like that, if they are offended by that, then fine. They don't have to like me or accept me. There are 6.7 billion people on this planet, certainly there is ONE person who likes me and accepts me for who I am.

Of course there are already people who do. My point is that in the grand scheme of things, one person or even ten or a hundred people not accepting me is not really that big of a deal.

Shakespeare wrote:

"To thine own self be true..."

At 31 it's high time I start doing that, isn't it?

Pax Christi,
KaraLynn