I'm Alive...I'm Alive...Thank God, I'm Alive!

I know that it's been awhile since I've written. Lots of things have been happening lately. First I moved back home with my mum and the rest of my family. I've set up a decent little pad in her basement. I enjoy having someone around most of the time. Coming home to an empty house was starting to work on me. It's a challenge living with four other people again (mostly men), but I am grateful that my mother is helping me out. I'm living here rent free. All I have to do is pay for my own food and give her some extra money for the utilities. I'm trying to save up money to go back to school or get into the States so that I can be with Adam.

Adam and I have been back together for a month and some. Our relationship is stronger than it's ever been. We have been through a lot these past four years and I think that it has all finally paid off. We are tight. The passionate, romantic Eros has matured into an Agape Love that is based on friendship and love for God. All my life I've dreamed of having a man love me the way Adam does. He appreciates me the way my heart has been longing for. His love is unconditional, it embraces all of who I am--the good, the bad and the horrific. I am so grateful to God for this wonderful man.

I'm also well on the way to achieving my goal of losing weight and becoming diabetes free. I've lost nine pounds so far and I've been given the knowledge and tools to get rid of this disease! My lifestyle has been given a complete overhaul and I'm now vegetarian, eating as much organic and natural food as I can. The results of the last two weeks alone has convinced me this is the way I should go.

My next step is to get rid of this horribly stressful job. I'm sure it has a lot to do with my body being so unhealthy.

My life has been extremely difficult at times, but God is good. Goodness itself.

Amen.

Pax Christi,
KaraLynn